Hey there, it sure has been awhile since I've posted anything, huh. Lots of stuff's been going on, like life, love (to a lesser degree) and leisure (to a much greater degree).
5K update: didn't do it
sad, but true. I couldn't (or simply didn't) find time to get my training in and when it came down to the wire, I decided i would like myself better if I bowed out gracefully instead of attempting to run it as is. It was fun to watch the people cross the finish line though, the first few are always the serious runners who never wear costumes, but as more and more people come running/jogging/walking/scooting/caroseling (no joke) down main street, the more fun and elaborate the costumes get. There was one group who were pushing a huge barrel-style keg of beer on wheels and every few hundred feet or so they would stop and do a little do-si-do with each other, they were also all dressed in german-ish beer maid costumes and leiderhosen. Ahh the magic of Halloween.

That night my friends and I gathered at my parents house to get ready and pre-party a bit before hitting the town. I had a good time strutting around in my Sarah Palin costume which, by the way, I thought was thouroughly clever until I saw three + of the same at each bar we went to. I came to realize that my costume was the cheeky brain child of no less than 15 other young women (and men) I ran into at Halloween festivities the weekends of and before Oct 31st. Whatever, tho...I found myself a John McCain to accessorize and take suggestive pictures with so all was indeed not lost.

So how about that election?
V. awesome that the guy I wanted to win, and MAY have had a steamy make-out dream about, won!? As much fun as the last 2 years have been with all the speculation and underhanded media moves by BOTH sides of the aisle, I'm v. glad it's over now. What has not been established yet however, is the MN senatorial race between Al "I Like Me" Franken and Norm "I'm so bipartisan I can switch party affiliation" Coleman. Can't wait for that nailbiter to be resolved...although I do give Franken some credit for not giving up, I mean, we weren't gonna use that 80 grand it's costing the state of MN to recount the votes just so you can loose in two weeks instead of one day, anyway!
But for reals, I am sorta pulling for the guy...and MN is the state where C-list actors come to wax politik, it's almost tradition to elect has beens into office a la Jesse Ventura. Just keep in mind California...we started doing it BEFORE it was cool.

Having a crappy day, wa wa wa

I had one of those lazy days today...I got up early and met a friend for a 5+ mile walk and with the greatest of intentions I went home to get ready for school. Unfortunately, Regis and Kelly happened. After that, The View happened. Once all that boob tube greatness was over, it was time for a nap. I slept a little too late and missed my one class I was going to go to. So I decided to make the trip to school anyway, I had an appointment with a lady from the business school to go over getting into a few classes for the summer. The Grand Pooba of Karma butted in and she decided not to show. That was sure super of her. So, instead of a light run this evening, I'm sitting at a local watering hole, ready to order a super tasty fruit-infused micro-brewed beer and finishing a few assignments. Not bad. I wasn't able to make it to my WW meeting yesterday because I had to work, and I have yet to understand the workings of this city's other WW meeting offerings...so I said fuck it. Next week will be a banner weight in, mark my words...Maybe we just won't count the points I drink tonight...there is no light beer here.
I love this damn town.
:)
LOVE

                                                                                                          

Saturday was the day of my 5K
Noticeably absent from the proceedings: ME
Decided it was more beneficial to forego the race, for two reasons:
1. I'm broke and didn't send my money in before I could spend it on beer
2. I am simply not ready to run a 5K race.
I'm still working on the October race...I will DEF be ready for it then. I walked 4.5 miles today, and I want to get out and do it tomorrow too.
Weigh in is Tuesday
I really feel a re-newed sense of committment to my fitness this week. Let's do this thing!!! yea!

Let's make it a great week friends!
LOVE

I might love someone. What if it was real? This can't be happening. I don't want to love him. Not in that way. It could never work. He could never love me. Whats wrong with me? I refuse to give in to this. Stupid. Feels kinda right. Don't know what to do. Can I act normal? How can I not? Shit.
Shit.
Shit.
Fuck.
Shit.

o man, this is NOT going to end well....

Stress like what I Make of it
Fat like how I touch
Makes things near- a stalwart glance-
How dear items do seem

My love- passion creeps like molasses-
takes cover in my arms- my back soft-
touch me- see this- do what makes smiles
sauce and spoons- warm and devour- me

Favorite taste- sweet- kisses and looks
taste you- wink- tender smells savory
Bite- soft skin- ice cream I scream
drips sticky juicy I know

Good day friends, there's a good foot of snow on the ground and our plow guy hasn't been here since the blizzard  on Thursday night...another day of being stranded. :(

I just need to think happy thoughts of Vegas.

Just one month away, just ONE month
          and a week.

VIVA LV, bitches

It feels good to be single, don't it!?
    Married and otherwise attached females feel free to disagree with what I have to say, but those ladies who know the feeling of freedom and are loving it...please say AMEN!!
    haha, no I'm not one of those freaks...but hey, what's wrong with appreciating your single status every once and awhile? I'm tired of people feeling sorry for me, and making me feel like I'm an ugly duckling for not being attached. EXCUSE ME if I like my alone time and would rather have time to work on ME than spending all my time worrying about if my boyfriend will like my new haircut.
EXCUSE ME if I feel like now is a time in my life when I can feel good about being more in love with myself than some dude.
EXCUSE ME...indeed.
HA, So I might be risking a case of carpel tunnel....who cares! At least I'm recycling the batteries, no?
I am loving my life...loving me...and I have ME to thank for that! HA, I laugh in the face of those who rely on their relationship status to get them through the night. Me and Manuel, my invisible spoon buddy are doin just fine thanks!
Ok, so I wouldn't LAUGH in anyone's face, but you get the jist...I'm just happy where I'm at right now...and hoping I won't have to eat my words in a few days when I get all menstrual.
Anywho, hope all you lovely people....attached or otherwise...are having a marvelous Friday night...I know I am!
LOVE

Ok so here's the skinny...or chubby...whichever way you decide to look at it is up to you I suppose:

Poundage down so far: 12.2
Poundage lost this week: 3.6
Miles ran/walked last week: 9
Nights of drinking: 3
Days I recorded ALL WW points consumed: 0 :(
Activity points recorded: unsure
 Hamstrings pulled (I think): two
Hours spent bitching about being sore: too many

Training days left until the 5k:
    Eleven!!! ahh!

Cheers to another week of improvements!

LOVE

Good Morning!
I got up pretty early this morning, tre out of character for me. I couldn't fall back asleep and I was planning on running before class today anyway, so I got up and got the day rolling. I ran/walked for about 25 mins and covered 1.90 miles. I didn't push myself as hard as I could have...or should have for that matter, but after the squats I did across my front lawn when I got back I feel like I tore both my hammies already!
So I have a little over a week and a half before the 5K, I know I'm not going to be able to run the whole thing but it should serve as a pretty good gauge as to how far I need to go before the real thing in October.
I'm on my way!
Have a super day peeps!
LOVE

yuuum. So my roomate bought this wine yesterday for extremely cheap, and yesterday it tasted similar to the way dogs smell...when wet. Admittadly, not so good. Tonight however, it's growin on me. That, and it's the only wine in the house and it's this or Island Breeze Coconut Rum and flat Diet Sprites...no thanks.

And YES, I AM drinking alone

However, I've been quite productive tonight. I cleaned the kitchen, downstairs bathroom, living room, and the dishes.
I also gave myself a mani/pedi and shaved my legs, AND slathered my body with some of that Jergen's Natural Glow Daily Moisturizer stuff. Feelin better already.

For being such a slob for the greater portion of my life, I find the deepest sense of satisfaction in organization. Cleaning and having a place for everything, everything in it's place is very gratifying. If only things would STAY in their place!
I don't know if I would ever be able to handle the whole "mom" thing in that respect...little Mess-Machines running around getting themselves and everything around them messy and cleaning up after them EVERY day!

Time will tell if that is something I'm cut out for, I was on facebook today looking at pictures of people I knew in High School and I came across the strangest thing I've seen in a long time. I came across the pictures of a girl I've known since elementary school, turns out she married a guy who I lived across the street from for as long as I can remember. I never spoke to the guy...I remember playing neighborhood games with the guy but I was so shy around boys so never really got to know him. But now they're married and have a baby on the way...I'm only 22, graduated high school four years ago. To me, that's the strangest thing ever!
The weird thing is, I know many more girls my age that have had babies and are not married, but I think that's less weird than these two being married and being pregnant. I still see them as how i remember them...so young. :(
It makes me sad...it makes me wonder how different my life could have turned out if I stayed with the guy I loved in High School. 
Such a shock to see people from my past, making a future together...I can't help but ask myself if this is something I want for myself,,,is that one of the reasons I'm freaking out?
No
It's regret for not being the person I wanted to be back then.
I wanted to be the girl the boys wanted to hang out with, I wanted to be his friend. I wanted to be part of the lives of the kids I thought were cool. I wanted to be one of those people.
The reality is that I wasn't
The reality is better than my fantasy. I have an amazing support system of friends and my family is AWESOME...and I have the world at my fingertips.
I can do anything I want. My options are limitless. I am tied down by nothing.
I wouldn't trade that for anything.
Well...for now :)
LOVE

I'm the first to admit that I'm a woman of contradictions. That being said...I hate being proven wrong!

Here is taste of the inner dialouge that was goin on in my head as tonight progressed:


All Day: WooHOO, it's Friday...let's go out tonight!

After Class: Ahh, relaxation...can't wait to have some fun tonight....IT's FRIDAY!

My Roomate/Best Friend: Hey...so I'm going to spend the night at (Boyfriend's Name)'s house tonight...c'ya!

After that: Oh man...I'm pissed...WTF?! I thought we were going out!

Ten mins later: i'll go out with (Friend's name), he always want to hang...sweet, no worries

Ten mins later: wait, I shouldn't go out...I have no money

Ten mins later: Roommate/BF calls, her BF and his buddies want to go out, "come and meet us out", me: Hells No! (in my head) I decided I can't go out, I'm broke and I have stuff to do (what I said)

Ten mins later: Someone should be hired to make my decisions for me

I might go out...no I won't...AHH!


LOVE

What a beautiful day!! Im so in love with how nice it is for spring to be poking her head out! Hope you are all having a glorious day, go out and enjoy it! LOVE

Hey you bitches, here is what's goin on in my fitness life as of now:

Weight lost since I started Weight Watchers: 8.0 lbs
I've got 2.5 weeks left to go until the 5K! ahh!


I'm kind of brain-dead right now...I have alot of homework to do before we go out...I'll fill you in more later!



LOVE

Went on a 5 mile walk with my girls today! It felt so good to get out and do it...it was one of the first really nice days here in northern MN. Everyone was out walking their dogs and having a great time enjoying the first days of spring!

I feel like I may be down like 3 or more pounds this week!
I can't believe I'm saying this, but I'm really looking forward to my WW meeting on Tuesday! I'm such a whore for applause, I let everyone know when I lose weight, I just love Weight Watchers. ( I hope I don't eat those words later...no pun int.)


Tonight is girls night, last night we went out for my good friend's 26th birthday, but tonight its just the ladies...and I've got to say, no matter how good I may feel about myself at the beginning of a night, it's amazing how bad OTHER girls can make you feel about myself!
It's a horrible feeling to be jealous of someone for getting more attention than you, but it happens and I have to admit it.
I love my girls and the other ladies we hang out with, but I know that being the biggest ( not only the heaviest, but the tallest by a lot) I know I stick out , and not in a good way, YET
By the end of the night I feel like a bitter, self-conscious bitch, and on top of that there is the guilt for feeling so terrible about my friends. Vicious cycle aside, I do love going out and meeting new people, it's just the majority of the male attention goes elsewhere :(  My challenge for tonight is to channel these feelings into fuel for me to stay on track with my new positive lifestyle.
I will not be the chubby duckling for the rest of my life!

I was so good last night...but drinking can be deceiving...serving size and being drunk are two factors to take into consideration when keeping track of what you're drinking...and then I went to MCDonalds, lets just put it this way...it could have been worse.
Be back after I throw come coffee at myself and try to catch it with my pie hole...

So I just got done taking a wonderfully chilly walk along Duluth, MN's Lakewalk with one of my best girlfriends. We were both feeling a bit crampy but endured nonetheless. We did about 2.5 miles. It's always fun to get to workout with a buddy, even though I didn't get any running in. I don't think its a bad thing though...correct me if I'm wrong but it's good to let the muscles heal for a day before working them to exhaustion again, right? right! I thought so.

Anyway, I'm not at Caribou Coffee, I just ate a Reduced Fat Orange Cranberry scone <---my FAVORITE! and a coffee (which is zero points on Weight Watchers!)

Time for some homework, then it's out for dinner for a friend's birthday!

Wish me luck, I'll try to be good

LOVE